I don't know why but I find it easier to talk to strangers about how I feel instead of talking to the ones that are close to me. I'm super weird... but that's one of my perks right? Hahaha.
I logged in today to see I haven't post anything in months, and I'd like to say I don't know why but that'd be lying. I know exactly why I don't post, I wanted to make a beauty blog or at least I thought that. After some time I've realised I just want a place where I can talk about everything and anything.
And all this brings me to the reason I'm writing. I'm too tired of everything.
I know we're all living in difficult times but believe me, being rude to the ones you love will not make it easier. Why am I saying this? Because of my family. I can see my sister trying to live her own life away from us, and it's actually a good thing (she's 25 ok?) but one thing she can´t understand is that while she's still living with us it is impossible. Of course she can have her friends, job and everything, but coming home and going to your bedroom as if we don't exist is pretty rude, you know?
Then I also have my wonderfully mad parents! I really find it impossible to know what do they want or what they think! I can find my mother yelling at me for doing nothing all day and 5 seconds later thanking me for cleaning up the dishes. I understand there's a lot she's worried about but really mum you don't need to sit down and start telling me that you wont buy me the books I want, that I'll have to find a job to buy whatever I want. Or tell me that having a job is a big responsibility. Do I look so stupid? I mean, I know perfectly what life is like! I'm only 18 and I've already gone through more things than you have in all your life.
And as for my father... well that's complicated. We can really be together but being apart is also difficult. Is a neither with you nor without you father-daughter relationship. But as long as he stays out of my business and I stay out of hims everything seems to be right.
And now excuse me but I gotta go look for a job so I can buy myself some self-help books and food that I actually like and doesn't make me depressed!
By for now and have a great Sunday!!
